A shift in direction


Which way do I go?

The way the world wants me to?
The way my family wants me to?
The way my Childrens fathers want me to?
The way that society has set us up for failure into believing we have to be?

Not just no but HELL no.

I want to be me.

The me that loves getting up early and going to bed equally as early.

The me that wants to play games with my Children. With the neighborhood kids..

The me that wants to shine a light on everyone I meet so that I have helped at least one person in my lifetime..

I want to be an authentic and genuine person. A girl who people see and just feel love and peace radiate from me instantly..

Honest. And open to the universe and what it has in store for me.

The universe is such a big and vast concept that no one can truly understand..

I hope to never understand.. because if I did.. I would get bored and never be able to ask my favorite question… Why?

It doesn’t matter why to what… I just want to know the Why in everything..

My direction in mine and mine alone..

I want to go with the flow of life..

To be in the moment..

To be still in knowing those around me.. love me as much as I love them..

Why not… An even better question..

Why not shift my path as the universe sees fit?

There is a new lesson around the corner for me and I am ready for it.

Ready to see where our life is going and how awesome it will be..

Today is a new day… Yesterday is gone.. and Tomorrow is not promised..


Namaste «» Love and Light «»


Lost and broken…. Or maybe not…


What do you do when you don’t know what to do?

When your at a place in your life when all you thought you ever wanted is here.

But then its not. It’s hard. It’s not at all what I anticipated.. it’s better…and worse at the same time.

What do you do?

Keep going? Push forward.. move on. Be here. Be in the moment. Live for today. I get it. We can only do what we can do.

But there has to be more..

More to this life then waking up to pay bills and then die…

When does life start?

When does the real meaning of life come into play? Or has it already?

I want the world to be happy. To be fullfilled. To be sane. To be loved. To be fixed.. to not feel broken. To not feel lost..

But how do I do that when at the core I am as broken as the next person?

Maybe broken and lost is exactly where I was meant to be. Maybe that IS my purpose. Maybe to be lost and broken is exactly where and what I was meant to be.. to show the power to overcome.

I mean.. if I can make it through ten years of some of the worst possible times of my life.. I can make it through this right?

Of course I can. And I will be doing so with the mentality that to be broken… Is to be perfect. To be lost… Is only a matter of perception.. my perception of being lost in this world is exactly where I want to be because to be found in this world, to me, would be a far greater disservice to myself because of what the world stands for.

I’m lost… Don’t Find me…

I’m broken… No need to tame..

I’m he’re… In this present moment..

To live. To laugh. To love.And finally.. To shine my light of broken and lostness… To show that to be broken and lost… Isn’t the end… It’s only the beginning of something…


Far greater then I have ever even been able to comprehend..

Namaste «» Love and Light «»